My little blog has been somewhat quiet this week, which is mostly due to craziness at work and because of that I just wasn't able to focus on reading or writing reviews or other more creative posts: I kinda blanked.
Tuesday, Thursday and Friday I was assigned to the emergency room and well, let's just say that while it's REALLY good for me as a doctor to experience everything and I know I'm learning a lot and have already grown into it over the past couple of days, it is HIGHLY stressful. There's a lot more pressure and less time and with also having to see the patients who were admitted the day before on the emergency nursing floor, it was pretty hectic. At one point on Thursday there were six patients in the ER I needed to examine, it was crazy and I'm lucky enough to have colleagues who came to my rescue and helped out. Friday ended awful in that I lost a patient and I just felt so helpless because there was nothing we could do.
The stress of the ER is getting to me in that I relive almost everything in my sleep and that's not really helpful.
Then yesterday I had my first 24-hour shift which had me feeling all kinds of nervous, cause while I rationalized that I usually do things by myself and only call the attending when I can't figure it out myself and I can also do this on the weekends, it's slightly nervewrecking to know you're the ONLY pulmonology doctor in the hospital and need to care for ALL the patients.
But it was kinda alright. I was busy from 8AM till 23.30PM and managed to eat somewhere in between seeing patients, but after that I went to bed and my pager didn't go off until 8AM the next morning. So I was actually able to get some sleep. And can I just say that it feels REALLY weird to sleep in the hospital? Especially when you know that at any time there might be an emergency you need to get up for.
But I made it, the patients survived and I'm kinda feeling ok after taking a nap earlier this afternoon.
I also did stuff aside from working ;) Wednesday I went to dinner with 3 of my best friends from high school. It was really fun and I ate so much I was still full the next morning! But the food was just SO GOOD! I love tapas... Between the four of us we have such an easy friendship and I love that we're still hanging out 7 years after we graduated from high school.
Also: last Wednesday at around 5.30 AM it was 7 years ago that I first met the boyfriend. We didn't really do anything to celebrate, because we were both crazy busy this week, but we'll celebrate in October probably when we're together 7 years.
Today is somewhat of a hard day for me emotionally. It's my grandmother's birthday, 17 days from now it'll be 4 years since she's passed away. I loved her very much and she was always so proud of me and her other grandchildren and days like this always make me sad because I just miss her.
In bookish news: I kinda failed at reading this week, though I did finish one book I really enjoyed and will be writing a review for soonish. I also completely failed at my book buying ban and pre-ordered more books. I'm running out of shelving space fast... I also feel pretty guilty for having so many books I haven't read yet. I should remedy this.
I doubt that this week will be any less busy than last week, but at least I have the weekend off, which is nice.
I hope you all have a nice Sunday and a great week!